okay, somma the chatters might know what's been going on in my RL world, so i figured i'd come out into the open if i seem a little emo lately.
Not too long ago, my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer, now, first there was the scan, two bloody great ovarian tumors were found.
One FULL Hysterectomy later, and a week of recovery, she was supposedly told that there was cancer all over her abdomen...
flash to a month or two ago.
we see an oncologist, he says that the tumor is the size of a walnut, and that he can CURE it.
now to early this week...
after chemotherapy, etc. it seems to have taken its toll on my grandmother. ALL her bloodcounts were RIGHT down, she was suffering from delirium because of it, and whatever medications she was on, she wasn't my "grandmother" anymore and just a shell of her former self.
in either case, late monday/early tuesday, she was taken to hospital for said problems..
the prognosis isn't good, doctors and nurses say that essentually, she's dying, and all that they can do for her is to make her feel comfortable.
not only that, but it seems that the initial prognosis may be either right, or blatantly inaccurrate, the cancer being scattered all around the abdomen.
what's hardest about all this, is that not only am i praying for a 'miracle' insofar as my grandmother somehow recovering, but also trying to get her affairs in order without her.
In either case, i've resolved to fulfill a promise i made to her, to make my comic a success, come hell or high water.
a hard week/month/year
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a hard week/month/year
"when a hero dies, he becomes a legend, that legend, with time, becomes a myth, then a fable, that fable, is then carved in stone, and when that stone crumbles, it is lost" - Takahn.
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Good luck. It's a bugger of an issue to sort through. Honestly, in some cases it can be better to have it all happen quickly without really having time to dwell on it until it's over. I wish you all the best in hoping that everything turns out for the greater good...remembering that good is not always nice.
I remember facing this with my own grandfather. It's not a pleasant feeling seeing reliable, strong Pa little more than a shell on a hospital bed. This is the time you focus on the person you know, and not how they appear at the moment.
Remember though, in the end you'll do okay. No doubt it's all she'd ever want of you.
Cheers.
I remember facing this with my own grandfather. It's not a pleasant feeling seeing reliable, strong Pa little more than a shell on a hospital bed. This is the time you focus on the person you know, and not how they appear at the moment.
Remember though, in the end you'll do okay. No doubt it's all she'd ever want of you.
Cheers.
Remember when your imagination was real? When the day seemed
longer than it was, and tomorrow was always another game away?
longer than it was, and tomorrow was always another game away?
I'll offer what I can for empathy. My father died suddenly two years ago. It was hard on all of us in the family for a long time, but we mourned and went on, always remembering him. Going back to a few months ago, my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and had an operation to remove it. She had cancer before about ten years ago and she lived through it, but this time it's a bit more serious since the cancer spread into the blood and she has some on the liver and the lungs. She's in chemo again now, and we'll just have to see how it goes.
But in your case it is the hardest, to see a loved one as shell of what you knew them as. My brother had a bad episode of schizophrenia about a year ago, and he had some delusional and unreasonable thinking, but mainly frustration and aggravation. His case wasn't that bad though, he was still fairly reasonable. But if it helps, your grandmother is still there, it's just that the "channel" between her and her senses is messed up.
As for the future, if this is her time to go, then that's all that you can do. You may have to get affairs and whatnot in order if she does go, but you'll go through it alright. Just keep the memories of what your grandmother was like.
But in your case it is the hardest, to see a loved one as shell of what you knew them as. My brother had a bad episode of schizophrenia about a year ago, and he had some delusional and unreasonable thinking, but mainly frustration and aggravation. His case wasn't that bad though, he was still fairly reasonable. But if it helps, your grandmother is still there, it's just that the "channel" between her and her senses is messed up.
As for the future, if this is her time to go, then that's all that you can do. You may have to get affairs and whatnot in order if she does go, but you'll go through it alright. Just keep the memories of what your grandmother was like.
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a small update, after the blood, my grandmother's delirium subsided, she's now resting peacefully, and between awakenings, is rather lucid, she's still very tired, however. Not to mention her blood pressure is dangerously low..
It's a small step forward, but we're not out of the woods, Yet.
Thanks for the support, guys, it means a lot.
It's a small step forward, but we're not out of the woods, Yet.
Thanks for the support, guys, it means a lot.
"when a hero dies, he becomes a legend, that legend, with time, becomes a myth, then a fable, that fable, is then carved in stone, and when that stone crumbles, it is lost" - Takahn.